dt/work,ill,song

So, this friday is DT coursework deadline. I stayed after school to do it, I got none done. I don't understand how people can make themselves work. If I'm not in a working mood, the minute I try to do some I get REALLY tired for some reason. Might have something to do with the 4 and a half hours of sleep every night, might not..

But that's your fault, not mine.

.. I don't hate anything more than looking around and seeing people working, and knowing I have loads to do but just can't do any. It's heard that marathon runners have this kind of problem, they hit "the wall" and they become unable to go on. It's not just with work though it's everything, I get to a point where a problem just defeats me, I must be weak minded or something, how pathetic.

I'm ill, I have been since saturday morning, thanks to a stupid, messy night on friday. I hate it, I go out with like 8 people and we just ended up getting slaughtered, wankered, rat arsed, equi-pwned. What ever you call it. It's right fun at the time but you know, you fucking know that you will regret it.

Yet you do it anyway,

why do we do it?

Why do we do something when we know out right that are making a mistake and will completely regret it. I did that last year, my life couldn't of been in a worse place, lost 2 of my best friends in the space of a month. I was quite depressed, yet I ruined my chance with you by not being able to wait like a month or so for me to sort myself out. God I really know how to go off on a tangent or type a paragraph of completely unrelated banter.

Why did I just tell God that? I was thinking that today, I don't go to Matty and say "Hey Danny" and then go through a story, so why do we say God?

I wrote a song on sunday, well, I just wrote lyrics. When I Say lyrics, I thought of a line. I'm not going to tell you what it is, but I want anyone who reads this to value "thinking time" every morning on the school bus I just think. I replay this lyric alot in my head, keeps me sane. Maybe I'll tell you next time,