Monday, 20 April 2009

A word to sum me up

Still

thinking about you:)
missing us:S
having doubts:(
feeling very optomistic:)
in a cracking place:)
worrying:(
smiling:)
frowning:(
all you?

Saturday, 4 April 2009

No way,

Don't fucking say that because I know you don't mean it.

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

whatthefuck

My unbearably good mood has kept me away from this site, which is a good thing because I use this site to get sadness out. We made it official today :) we have a song, we have a spot at school, I make fun of her, she makes fun of me... All of that makes me so happy it's untrue.

Note that I actually just used a "smiley" in one of my paragraphs, this reinforces my happiness

Why would you be pissed off because I didn't rush to my phone to call you the minute we got together?
When I heard about that, I thought it was some joke because I've scarcely heard of anything that selfish in my life.

Why haven't you updated me about YOUR life?!

I don't have to tell you what I do with my life, it was 6 and a half fucking months ago. You didn't want to be with me, that's fine with me, but don't get pissed off with me when I don't tell you that I'm getting with someone over half a year later!

You can give me as many short, fake-problem-resolving answers as you like. I'm just not even going to try now, you don't want me in your life, I'm not going to question that. I already thought that's how you felt, so you see how I feel when you pop back in to have a go at me for not telling you about the first person that has made me happy since you!

So slate me to everyone you see, make the world hate me for not informing you about my daily life, but in another half a year when I eat something for breakfast that you don't agree with, I'm confident my real friends won't leave my side. Just like you left mine today, or last week, or 6 months ago, whenever it was you became what you showed me today.




Jen-Jen-Jen.... sorry, it cheers me up typing that.




Friday, 27 March 2009

I think I....

I think I found her :)

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

Get the Fuck out

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please get out of my head...

As you walk by

Every time you walk by
I get that feeling you get before a cry
Like an unopened letter
from the one you love
already knowing it tells the end

all I know is when,
when we'll be apart
I sat there alone
gliding to my fate

These untold silences and killer stares
Make a lion of you and a mouse of me
These corridor passings and dangerous glares
Make a lion of you and a mouse of me

This time won't be like the last time
I won't fall again, I won't let you invade
Your armies all gathered by my dreams
the anchor drops the flag is burned and

all I know is when
when we'll be together
I sit here with friends
moving from the mist


These untold silences and killer stares
Make a lion of you and a mouse of me
These corridor passings and dangerous glares
Make a lion of you and a mouse of me

you and me,
him and her,
here and there,
then and now,

you and me,
him and her,
here and there,
then and now,

you and me,
him and her,
here and there,
then and now,

Monday, 23 March 2009

Have you ever wondered?
Have you ever thought?
Have you ever even considered!... the thought of lost love?!

I have had to live with this unbearable burden, I have stood by the fact that things happen for a reason and I have kept my chin up and trusted the ones close to me to keep me sane. But now, now I don't know who to trust,

YOU BETRAYED ME!

I thought you cared about me, you always had the girls, the friends, the fun. But this time I had a chance, I asked you to help me and look what you did, look at how you made me look a fool. I loved her and you stole her away. You were always the one I trusted, I never would have assumed for a second that you would do this to me, now

thanks to you

I have nothing, absolutely nothing, I feel like the only last chance I had at life has gone, and now I don't even have you to help me through the pain. You've left me and taken away my dreams.

Why live if you can't dream?

Why live if you can't love?

I won't have to worry about Dreams or Love, you can't do them when you're dead.



^^^^^^^

My monologue I wrote for Danny's death scene in my devised drama piece. He is losing his mind after his best friend stole the one he loved. He has HIV and this girl was the only time he felt alive, he hadn't left his room for 3 years before he saw them together. Now he feels more trapped than he ever had done.

He will go onto stop taking his medication and die.

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Hi, I had one of these nifty things for one and a half years, under "hazzagogo" sure I could change the name but I got my first msn adress in year 3. I chose that as my email address because I heard a song lyric and thought that it was cool to say "a gogo" after stuff. I wasn't planning on leaving that kind of meaningful stuff behind me. I'm Harry and I posted once every 2 days at least since the 12th september 2007, barring holidays of course. Looks like I lost all that as whoever is behind this site decided he diddn't like me. Alot of people don't. BY THE WAY I took the time to Bold anything that is completely unrelated to the subject of the post.